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Writer's pictureAvita Ragnauth

Lost

Updated: Jan 8, 2022

As I typed the word "Lost" in the heading I realized that some of the most powerful words have four letters such as: love, hate, work, food... I can probably go on for days. But these four, powerful, four-letter words are some key elements to life (ha! another one).


I was born (maybe we should turn this into a drinking game) into a world by no means of my own accord. As I navigate this planet, this life, this realm of reality, this whatever you want to call it, I search for love, but it seems as though hate engulfs the world. During one of the toughest years of humanity (2020), I have seen the media explode with reports about a lot of hateful events. It disturbs my soul and very existence that these things like wars, racism, rape, etc exist. I wonder, how can people justify these actions in their minds to execute them?


What makes it okay to plant bombs and harm many innocent people? What makes it okay to rape another person? What makes it okay to hate and convict a person because of the colour of their skin or what they wear? I guess in a hateful world, love is the treasure. Maybe, all these awful things just add value to the good things, like friendship, peace, family, enjoyment, etc. I mean, would a diamond be as valuable if it was as abundant as sand? There cannot be good without bad, there needs to be balance otherwise we would become numb.


While in search of love, I still need to survive. I need food and shelter, but those things don't come easy, they are not free. The only way to get those basic needs taken care of, I need to work. I don't work for money as much as I work to sustain myself. Having money is great, yes, it is an element of freedom. But if I am stuck on a small island in my lonesome with a million dollars, what good is it? What good is anything really? Knowledge and skills are probably my best survival tools.


In this world, where there is infinite knowledge to know, and infinite good and bad things that happen, navigation can become tricky. There are no actual rules or guides on ‘how to life’, besides going to school, getting a job, getting married, having children, rinse, and repeat. There are no guarantees in life besides death.


Life is the journey to our ultimate demise. There are no clear directions but as I navigate through life, I hope to find myself. I hope to discover more about who I am and my purpose.


Sincerely,

Avita.



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